Sometimes we do things which we aren't supposed to do..despite promising someone you love that you wont do it but you somehow do it. Not once ..not twice but many times!! That's what Raj did..something he shouldnt have done inspite of his promise made to the love of his life. Twice she had agreed to believe in him...trust him
It is not as if like they were on a break like Ross & Rachel were, he was deeply in love with her..in a committed relationship with her! However that one night he indulged in that act of immorality (an erotic chat with a stranger) without thinking about the promise he had made to her to not betray her trust not knowing that karma is a bitch and someday it would catchup to him. He was foolish to think that he could escape from it. Life has its own way of balancing such acts of betrayal and yes they do catch up!! Karma had caught up!!
She felt miserable..helpless..not knowing what to do!! She thought of him as his life partner..her soulmate...someone she would build and decorate her house with...someone she would grow old with him and here he was betraying her trust once again...She didn't know what to do..she had stumbled upon his act..he had betrayed her again and again...she was hurt...she was in pain...
He was genuinely sorry..he had made a mistake..it had been so many years and he had thought he was over it but it wasn't (he shouldnt have done the erotic conversation with the stranger)..he had relapsed on it once!! Vowing never to do it again..he apologized to her but then what would his word mean to her..nothing...It was zilch...
But he still loved her..he wanted to make things right...he wanted to try again..for their sake..he wanted to do everything that would make her happy! He had erred and it was absolutely wrong of him to go back on his word!! He was sorry!! Sorry for breaking his word!! Sorry for causing her hurt! Sorry for breaking her trust!! Sorry for causing her pain!! He himself was in pain!!
Like her, he had also cried to sleep every night since then...maybe his tears weren't visible but his heart was crying...he didnt want to lose her...he loved her...He loved her more than anyone else in the world...
He was sorry and he just wanted to know if there was a way to tell her and convince her that he loved her. If only he could!! Sorry he said to her in his heart !!
